Just last year, an aunt was telling me past memories with her deceased husband and how he felt which she never knew till she read his diary. As she recounted, amidst the smiles of remembering him, the tears rolled down the cheeks as the bittersweet reality kicked in.
Writing a journal might be therapautic for yourself but you will never know how precious and soothing it will be for your loved ones too. So, write down the happiest and sweetest memories down for our brains work in such a way that the unhappy moments always pop out and false memories are aplenty.
So, with that in mind and my parents' constant worrying about my Penang trip, I became paranoia about the travelling that I prepared my last words, well just in case. This really sounds silly. But I can't swim, neither can I fly like Nathan and I definitely don't want to be struck in mid-air, etc penning down my last thoughts on a piece of paper that no one will ever get to read and feeling regretful of the things I didn't do or the words I haven't say! Of course, having the fear doesn't mean that I believe it will happen and that's why I only wrote halfway because it was a impromptu decision and well, packing my luggage is practically more important lol.. this time maybe I will complete it?
Upon reflection, I think everyone should prepared such last words, not just for those going overseas because anything can happen any time. James 4:14 "Yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes." We should always be ready and seize the most out of everyday. Perhaps it is for our individual need that the things one have not say or done due to pride, lack of assurance or not knowing whether it is still status quo will finally be revealed. On the other side, it will also be comforting for those who will know and need not guess further. That's what make Gerry in ps i love you so sweet to get his wife on track in her life though I don't like how she resumed her life.
2 years ago, I told my parents that I want a white (white's beautiful, isn't it?) coffin and that nice&tasty food must be served (let's do away with the red strings, peanuts and melon seeds). Perhaps it seemed unfilial but it's never too early for such discussion, I mean the first 2 wakes I went were my peers. Not sounding morbid, but it is always good to have some expectations. Take pictures with me.. it's your last chance, so smile and make sure I look good in the pictures. Don't use my wake as a family gathering or to catch up with other peeps..It will be my wake, make sure I'm the topic of discussion haha. & while you can cry, be happy for I will go home to be with the Lord =)
it's okay if you can't see the road ahead, just make sure God is still in sight!!
In His time, in His time,
He makes all things beautful in His time.
Lord, please show me every day,
As You're teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say, in Your time.
In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring.
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.
Words and Music by Diane Ball
Th3 b@bY iN mI
vette
15 Sept 88
child of God
likes: zzz
dislikes: waa waa
