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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

It's gonna be 1am & I been awake for like 18hours straight, spending the whole day out. That's a record for this year haha.. Been slacking so much that I feel tired even when going out to enjoy lol.. & not sleeping rest because I know if I procastinate now, you won't see this entry.

Went to take my BTT early in the morning. I was surprised when I step into the driving centre because I saw a young lady sitting in the passenger seat while a matured man was at the wheels. First thought: cool!! a lady instructor.. second thought: haha hoped that mine will be a female too.. On a closer look, I realised that the man was the instructor because he was dressed like all the other instructors. Final thought: no female instructor? If that's the case, then the guys shouldn't complain that girls can't drive well because it's you guys who passed us (me? soon.. this year heh;p cher how about you??).

Am I a sexist or having double standards? That's what phoebe(feeee) commented after I said something (which we both can't remember!!) Why is it that when I need to recall certain random stuffs like now, I can't. But those feelings that I try to numb away just keep coming back. Maybe because there is always that stimulating/stimulator effect.
Anyway (back to the something I forgotten what & still cannot remember), I was saying something along this lines: A girl can don't know how to swim or cycle but a guy must be able to do so. haah maybe fee's right because I will never have this thought: A guy can don't know how to cook but a girl must be able to do so.

When it was still under construction..

but Fort Canning Tunnel is opened!! haha I don't know why but I'm always excited to go into tunnels.. perhaps it can blocked out the landscape from me & all I can see is ahead. Though it's restricted, there's a spacey feeling. & no! not mrt that kind of tunnels.

Had a manicure while watching Full House (not again but only those I missed). Wanted to take pic but my hp camera is no longer working.. argh!! Now it's useless to take a pic because only 3 & 1/2 nails are still intact as my manicurist (hehe) is just a trainee (oops)
Here's something I saw from her blog: please be truthful to someone if you love him/her; that doesn't mean that you have to pour your hearts out,just don't lie or try to keep your real agenda under wraps.it'll backfire, definitely.
(In a different context) Perhaps it does.. but self-protection is needed to hide the vulnerability

I know what the movie wants to portray. However, it didn't hit me in the same multitude it did for the others. The emotional scenes weren't given enough screen time to build up. I need to really feel it to feel it lol. The words hit me the most then the vivid images. Also, it seems to throw a cold and brutal truth straight in my face with all the violence. & it's just not my style of receiving.. As the chinese proverb goes: wo shi chi luan bu chi ying. Translated to my version: I eat wet gravy~ied rice(soft) & not plain dry rice (hard). Perhaps this analogy is not very good but yesh I like to talk in riddles.. Throw a stone at me & I will return it to you; Throw a cushion at me and I will hug it.

hmm I realised that the more I try to explain, the further it is from what I originally intended. Perhaps that's why I did and should hold my peace sometimes..Wah!! it's 230 now.. I took a pretty long time. if only now I can sleep as long as I had been awake. (20 hours!! bleah :)

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